Saturday, June 28, 2008

Any regrets

I had an awkward moment this week. I saw an old friend, one that I grew up with- at some point I guess you could say we were best friends- It was awkward because for some strange reason we have grown so far apart over the last ten years- tapering off to the occasional phone call or letter, and then that once a year Christmas card- until somewhere one of us broke the chain of communication and it just ceased. I haven't talked to her in almost three years. You would think that being tight for so many years this just wouldn't happen but it did. After college we each took different roads. I settled for family and she is off being ambitious "trying to make the world a better place."
What do you say to someone you were once so close to and now .... It was definitely uncomfortable small talk- "hows the job, how are the kids". After a weird and bizarre 10 minutes I was saved by the chime of my work beeper (thank heavens just this once for that damn beeper) We ended things with a "I will call you we will have to do lunch" but I'm not sure who is supposed to call who- and so do wait for another chance meeting somewhere three years from now.
Really, I guess we just no longer have anything in common- she doesn't want to hear about my husbands crazy antics or my sons latest accomplishment. And I have to admit I am just a bit bored with hearing about her latest high power job or which political figure she is campaigning for. (boy it sounds really superficial). At one point though -about twenty years ago- some Friday night slumber party we were lying in sleeping bags on her living room floor- talking about where we wanted our futures to go ........ I don't think we anticipated awkward small talk between the two of us.
That all being said I have no regrets for my life- alright, well maybe I regret that second slice of pizza I had at lunch today:)

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